Bewitch? I wish...

Seriously, where does the time go? 
Oh, that's right, I know! Passing away the days in awe of moments like this one:

http://youtu.be/88K5-fZEIeM 

...while simultaneously, obsessively trying to figure out how I can turn my love of writing and dream of earning an income thru writing into reality; of someday publishing a book à la EL James/Suzanne Collins, with a mix of Mean Girls/Bridesmaids... and then some.

Instead of making "it" happen, actually WRITING, I'm stuck, blocked if you will, enjoying the moments of motherhood and being home with baby, washing bottles and finding my body again and yes, I admit, watching way too much TV (I mean, come on - Ellen's 10th season! BB14 Finale! Glee and season premieres, oh my!) while my little guy sleeps peacefully on me, leaving me only one free hand to type. The ideas tornado around in my mind, leaving me confused and, let's be honest, afraid that they may stay for twirling in my mind and not released into something special for the world to read, that i may never achieve the legacy I'd like to leave for my son.

I'm trying not to panic, feeling as though this transitional year is too quickly ticking away, and reminding myself where there is a will...and to just go, just do, do do. 'They' (the wise) say, "do what you love, and the money will come." If only someone could pay the bills in the meantime...If only I could twitch my nose and have it be real when I open my eyes...



...but even in the age/speed of the internet,  the time when everyone gets their 15 minutes of fame, and when, well everything, is immediate, it remains true that most things worth having, especially life long dreams and visions, are worth hard work, dedication and persistence. 

With that in mind, and with one free hand, off I go to start chapter one... again;)

Cheers, to not giving up!
PLG ~ JKF

Making Time for a Quickie

Keeping up in the theme of yesterday's motivational speakers, I am making time; making time, right now, to do what I love. And I feel great.
Relief.

By making time, right now, I mean that I am finding the good in the chores that have to get done in this short window of time. Somehow, as I multitask, I am finding new ways of being grateful and doing things I love.

For example, this very minute, I am sneaking in a moment for this quickie post - even if only for a minute, writing soothes my soul; while catching up on Y&R - for me, the sounds of Genoa City in the background represents comfort; in between rounds of washing the dishes, and tidying the kitchen - I feel warm enjoying the sun going down out the window and grateful that I have dishes to wash and a kitchen to clean; Husband is outside chatting with a new neighbour, surely drinking a(nother) cold beer - instead of being bitter that he is out there and I am in here cleaning, I am thankful for these stolen moments to myself, inside where it's cooler, to clear my head and take a break from the thick, scorching evening heat outside.

What wiseguy said that "when we're multitasking, we're not acutally getting anything done?"  I disagree.

It's just about making time. Doing. Breathing.

I was feeling slightly embarrassed about my emotional diarrhea from yesterday's post, and now, not so much. I am happy to have reminded myself that a breakdown is sometimes required to turn that page.

...
 PLG ~ JKF